Please bare with me. I am doing a lot of pondering today and want to get my ideas and feelings out. Please ANYONE feel free to answer my questions and help me understand.
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Tough subject for just about everyone to talk about. There are people that are strong in one church and believe all other faiths are wrong. Then there are those who believe bits and pieces of lots of different religions. I happen to be one of those people.
I was baptized Catholic at a young age...yet I only remember going to church maybe a handful of times. My mother is the one that decided to have me baptized at a young age. Then in my young child years I would go to LDS (Mormon) church with my dad and grandparents. I remember bits there. Then as I grew I moved in with my dad, mom (step mom to be factual) and family. I began to go to LDS church with them almost every Sunday. I grew an understanding of the church and the feeling I had times at church or at church history sites is unexplainable...
I was baptized LDS on July 31, 2004 my 18th birthday. But I am afraid I did not understand what I was doing to the fullest. I did it for a few reasons. 1. To upset my mother (we grew apart fast) 2. to make my dad proud of me. There are not a lot of things I have done in life that I know my father is proud of me for. I wanted to make him happy and proud...Which is where I went wrong. and the third reason is 3. to fit in
Yes I believe in the Church of Latter Day Saints but only parts...Well actually no not believe...understand. I only understand parts to the LDS church.
I want to raise my son and be a part of a faith but I am unsure as to which one.
I know there is a Higher Being (God) and I know that he has a son (Christ) And I believe there are angles.
But I don't understand a few things.
With the LDS church I don't understand tithing, fasting, why only men have the power of blessings, and the history...(which isn't hard to believe...I don't understand ANY history)
The other thing I don't understand is all the rules to follow. Like, no drinking (didnt the sacrament use to be severed with wine?) I can understand the no smoking, using the name in vain and things like that though
But to the other religion I was "brought up in" Catholic....I don't understand why the worship Mary...She did give birth but if it wasn't for the Higher Being it wouldn't have happened. She was just doing as he asked of her. The other thing I don't understand is baptized at such a young age...If I was 18 when I chose to be baptized and I don't understand a lot how is a baby going to know... Also why the memorized prayers...
I know there are a lot more religions those are just the two I know a bit about.
I have read the Bible and The Book Of Mormon...Yet I still have question, unsure of things and total don't understand. I mean I am not the greatest read...actually I am the worst reader...and speller at that matter LOL so maybe it is my fault I don't understand and it is my fault I am so confused.
I want to talk to my parents but I am pretty sure I know what they will say...They think I am not interested and that I was lied to them the whole time...Guess what I wasn't I was confused and I did not fully understand what I was learning, reading and believing.
There are things I know I will have to change in my life if I do chose to go fully LDS...and I don't know how that will go. I will cross that when I get to understanding more and clear minded. My mind feels like it is being pulled into MANY directions...Maybe cause I am trying to solve all of this at once. Maybe if I take it piece by piece and learn little by little then my emotions and mind will slow down...
I just don't know...to be continued....
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Thanks for baring with me...again I am sorry for all the dumping. I just needed to clear my mind a bit. And maybe my parents will see this and come talk to me instead of me going to them...hint hint hint LOL j/k you don't have to if you don't want to get in to it mom and dad. Well I guess all I can do know is read...and hope that something will come to me and I will get my questions answered...
10 years ago
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Here are some answers.
Wine/alcohol- In the ancient times of Jesus wine was considered pure grapes of the vine. Now what do they do with it? Ferment it, age it, add preservatives and other things that make people addicted, intoxicated, and do STUPID things. What does it do to you? Come on do you really need to ask?
Tithing- best described on this site:
http://www.mormon.org/mormonorg/eng/basic-beliefs/the-commandments/live-the-law-of-tithing
Men/Priesthood- Gives men the power to somewhat measure up to women. LOL! But seriously, only men that have had the priesthood can become servants of satan if they deny god. Do you really want that on you? I don't! With more power, God gives you more responsibility.
Rules are for our protection, health and growth and that means rules wherever and for whatever whether it be law of the land or religion.
What it boils down to honestly Meg is if you study and pray and HONESTLY ask God if it's true, HE will tell you. If HE tells you it's true, the other stuff is correct. Questions are normal but I can answer questions until I'm blue in the face and my voice is gone but until you gain a TRUE testimony, it won't mean a thing.
And I'm NOT one that believes there are not churches that teach truths.
Your choice is your choice. But are you choosing it because you HONESTLY believe it or are you choosing it because it's easy and you can justify your lifestyle with it? Where have your choices in lifestyle gotten you?
Love you,
Mom
Hello Meg, this is the first time reading your blogspot, way cute! A book that really helped me out that I think you might like is called, Embraced by the Light, by Betty J Eadie. She too was raised Catholic and converted to the LDS church, but she tries to leave her LDS perspective out of her experience. I think the book shows that we are all on the right track when we love one another, try to become better people and that Heavenly Father loves us regardless. Tell me what you think. I have a copy if you need one.
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